horizon

A third floor window opens onto a balcony, the sun shines on the concrete desert of the abandoned courtyard. Only a few years ago this was a thriving tourist resort. Everything sits still now. Everything has stopped. Everything is covered in a fine layer of dust- a layer of time.

BANG

I am Alone.

This

FEVERISH

Solitude.

I could be anywhere but I am here Alone

Desert winds blow across the sea. They used to say that these winds brought the strange men from other lands. You can smell the hot sun in the wind. Betrayal is the worst kind of loss, you loose the ability to trust and so you can never feel what you felt before. The many since our world and theirs once were at peace. I have betrayed myself we are all the betrayers of our own souls. Betray Betray take it all away. I am Alone. I therefore cannot abide. You are a fool to think anything of me that you cannot think of yourself. I cannot please me let alone POSSIBLY you. I can never just please me I must please all.

Rules

How to avoid being perceived, how to avoid error:

1. Always look out for other peoples interests
2. Never do anything on a whim
3. Do not follow your heart, lead with your brain
4. Listen
5. Wait
6. Destroy. EXTERMINATE

I therefore need you to breathe, sleep and wake.

The wind against my face.

Rushing

Forward

Moving

Toward

It is unsettling when it is still-

To know. This air is infinitely old. This wind has been blowing forever. Will blow forever. It is part of the whole and to breathe this air I need to live to keep breathing to know I need to keep breathing …’I can only do so indirectly’… sometimes I forget.

I know

There is the wind (the air that I breathe, the breath that I draw)

There is the Sun that warms the earth and moves the air

There is the compulsion to destroy

There is the compulsion to survive